Present Moment is week 3 of my 52-week gratitude challenge. I want to be super transparent in this post. Probably the most transparent I have been on here – but I’m not OK! I am struggling with a lot right now, and it’s hard and heavy some days. I am in a rut that I can’t pull myself out of, and I just keep sliding further and further away.
I am a VERY anxious person. I really want to say that’s who I am, but we are not meant to be anxious people. I am also an empath which means I feel what other people feel on a whole different level. I am very entuned with people’s emotions and sometimes bring them on like they are my own. I feel and notice the slightest change in people’s emotions. Then I think I did something wrong or that I have to be the one to fix it.
I also consider myself a highly sensitive person. I didn’t for the longest time – I just thought I was overly sensitive. It wasn’t until my friend said you may be a highly sensitive person & that I should read the book. Yep, I hit all of those marks. While I reading the book so many things started to make sense.
So now, know this I can be a mess of a human sometimes. Lately, I have been an uncontrollable mess. Some would say straight feral and massive crybaby. This is all true! I feel like I have ZERO control of my body and life right now. I feel like I am stuck. My mind knows what it wants to do but my body can’t move or do what my mind wants. I’m paralyzed, and it sucks!
Anxiety
My anxiety is at an all-time high. I wouldn’t even say it’s anxiety. It feels more like paranoia. I am just struggling with life. I am trying to be in the moment and take things slow and one at time, but sometimes it feels like even that is too much.
I have been working on being more kind to myself.
